Reviving Titus

i know i'm a freakshow, & i fart at the affairs of...
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YESTERDAY WAS SUPER DUPER FUN at the ccab.

so i woke up yesterday morning feeling this great sense of excitement cos i really wanna do this eco whatever, right? and so i shower and slipped into my ugly uniform and was driven to huiying's house by my family (: i love them! well i saw my baobao (weiling) and i played on the swings with her (oh, i love swings!) and chatted about stuffs that don't really matter here.

then weiling said she saw huiying at the 11th storey waving to us. i was like where? i looked up, there wasnt anything moving at all. (oh yeah btw i saw this half naked indian man staring at me before this and it really freaked the hell outta me, lol) and weiling was like, u slow ah. yay, i was wondering, she took so long to figure out that my brain cells work as fast as the pace of a half-dead snail. HAHA.

anw, lemme fast forward to the "when me, weiling, huiying and huiying's dad are alrdy in the nissan (i think)". and you're wondering where is shah? well, she was (as per normal) still at home, cos she forgot to bring her bandanna. and in the end weiling called her and told her to give it up alrdy cos we are running late. then i was kinda agitated cos i have this thing abt everybody having a bandanna except for one person. so to comfort me my baobao said aiya the most ppl think she is ASEAN scholar and i made huiying's dad laugh by saying "oh YEAH..from india!" haha. then weiling was like from indonesia lah..then i say since when they so dark, my mom is fair..oh well..so..well. that was that.

and so when we reached that ccab i got to open my "magical forest" again! haha. love that thing..

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OK FAST FORWARD. in the end, me and weiling ended up going to JP. to eat KFC AGAIN (third time that week) and to walk around. at KFC weiling was TRYING to tell me sth, but as per normal, i was oblivious. so she gave me clues which led me to getting the wrong idea. so we walked around and i finally got it out of her..and i was screaming my head off like i was gonna get decapitated. WOW.

people were staring suspiciously. so weiling got me into the waste chambers..where i peed my sane mind away/out. and when i got out i told weiling firmly that i wanted to eat ice cream. with chocolate. and she stared hard at me and told me she was broke, so i told her its on me. and thats when she confirmed i really have lost it. bam. toing. screw loose. spring out. i was insane in a way where i was sane, do you get what im on about? i really was disappointed to the point where when i climbed the elevator i wasnt sweating anymore which was weird cos i hate elevators if you know me well enough.

weiling..i thank you for all you have done for me (: you're the bestiest funniest most tolerating maisy crap friend in the whole wide ugly biggy world! i love you my baobao! i just hope you dont tell me more disappointing stuff to take advantage of my "treat-the-friend-when-i-am-damn-fcuking-shocked" rule. haha. :P

i wanna know what has been going on in your head and also that silly idiot of yours. may God be forgiving on your behalf but i think i need more time to have the heart to forgive someone like you.

am i a hate-able person? what did i do? is it cos im not close to God like im supposed to be? am i a bad person? do i deserve all this? i wonder, if someone will ever enlighten me one day. someday. i guess i will have to be patient. i wonder if i ever hurt someone or broke their heart. if i have, i beg you your forgiveness, and hope you do tell me what it is that i have done, cos i hate those who have hurt with no reason at all. and i do not want to be one of them. at all.